I get asked a lot of questions throughout my days. From, “Has anyone ever told you that you look like…” to “You weren’t kidding when you said you’re terrible at driving, huh?” Both of these make me giggle because I rarely resemble the person I’m compared to and well, it just can’t be denied… I am in the running for the absolute worst driver in Tennessee. Maybe even the whole Mid-South.
There is another repetitive question than can be added to that list, though. “How do you have your life so put together and figured out?” HA! This is probably the funniest of them all. Let me clear something up – I am 100 % human. I wake up grumpy, spill any and everything all over myself and say the wrong things far too often. Difficult days happen, too. Loved ones pass away, friends hurt, doubts and feelings of unworthiness arise and I’m left begging God to step in and take over.
I frequently question the significance of how I spend my days. Do these strivings, tears, blood and sweat invested in making the world a better place really matter? Will it even make a difference if I just stop and live an average North American lifestyle wrapped all around myself instead? Why can’t I just quietly get by with just making a good income, marrying a decent guy and living in a pleasant neighborhood made complete with a perfectly manicured lawn?
I’m instantly reminded that we were created for so much more than a safe and comfortable lifestyle. All throughout scripture we see how the Lord uses individuals to impact the world. What if young David, the scrawny little shepherd boy, had never obeyed and stood up to Goliath? Consider Moses, letting out the loud cry of “Let my people go!” against the wishes of others and with his speech impediments to boot. Oh, and let us not forget Mary – bent low at Jesus’ feet, anointing him with oil and wiping it away with the very hairs of her head. A beautiful picture of God’s strength displayed in our weaknesses would have never been painted if each of them had never said the simple “yes” to God’s calling on their lives – despite doubts, fears and the judgement of others.
There will be moments when the things the Lord is preparing us to will seem absurd, far-fetched and impossible. We will want to retreat and give up, but we can’t dismiss ourselves that easily when He calls and others depend on us. He has a different way of doing things. He sees beyond our imperfections and the present moment and somehow, in His own above my own way of thinking, decides that He is going to use silly little people like you and me to rock the world- or at least someone’s world.
I don’t think the key to living a significant is to “have it all together”, but rather to trust in the One who does and just say “yes” to whatever He calls us to do. Nevermind our feelings, we can and must obey in spite of them. Once we fully surrender our own wills and let them be blended in with His, we find those thoughts to be insignificant in comparison to the glory of the Lord set on display. We don’t have to figure it all out – we just have to trust that the One who calls us already has the map, and our job is to simply hop in and join Him on the adventure.